Three months ago someone asked me on my YouTube channel:
How can we take the control of our life back? Why can't I stop procrastinating? Why do I disappoint myself every time? Even though I know what I am doing is wrong but I am still not able to prevent it. Why my emotions are so complex?
We can't control anything. But as far as procrastination is concerned, it occurs because we fear taking the necessary steps, as we form the notion that failure will result in sadness and embarrassment. Now, what is even failure? We really can't deem not getting something failure. Imagine this - when someone likes a person or something, it becomes an ardent want and desire.
After getting it, it often happens that we realize this was not even what we wanted. We are programmed to be in a certain way from our childhood, and many factors keep us living in an endless loop - our upbringing, surroundings, and conditionings.
The incredible thing is that you have realized you deserve more and want to design a life for yourself in your own way. Now, whatever you want out of life, please write it down somewhere. The things you desire emotionally and the things you want to achieve - career, personal growth, and your inner peace. It will take time, but the process will begin. You are procrastinating because you have become comfortable with your current environment. Once you identify your flaws, the things you have gone through - your trauma, failure, deceit, or it could be anything. You will start getting answers in tandem. You will get a solution, and you act upon it. The decision would be harsh and transformative, but only because you will be shunning years of attachment and pain. The darkness will do its best to lure you. You have to find that tiny ray of light in the darkness and step into the light. Things will start happening.
