Procrastination

 

Three months ago someone asked me on my YouTube channel:

How can we take the control of our life back? Why can't I stop procrastinating? Why do I disappoint myself every time? Even though I know what I am doing is wrong but I am still not able to prevent it. Why my emotions are so complex?

We can't control anything. But as far as procrastination is concerned, it occurs because we fear taking the necessary steps, as we form the notion that failure will result in sadness and embarrassment. Now, what is even failure? We really can't deem not getting something failure. Imagine this - when someone likes a person or something, it becomes an ardent want and desire. 

After getting it, it often happens that we realize this was not even what we wanted. We are programmed to be in a certain way from our childhood, and many factors keep us living in an endless loop - our upbringing, surroundings, and conditionings. 

The incredible thing is that you have realized you deserve more and want to design a life for yourself in your own way. Now, whatever you want out of life, please write it down somewhere. The things you desire emotionally and the things you want to achieve - career, personal growth, and your inner peace. It will take time, but the process will begin. You are procrastinating because you have become comfortable with your current environment. Once you identify your flaws, the things you have gone through - your trauma, failure, deceit, or it could be anything. You will start getting answers in tandem. You will get a solution, and you act upon it. The decision would be harsh and transformative, but only because you will be shunning years of attachment and pain. The darkness will do its best to lure you. You have to find that tiny ray of light in the darkness and step into the light. Things will start happening.

Shamanism - The Unknown Life Path I Had to Explore & Leave Earth

                                                         

Your life will become beautiful when you make conscious efforts to improve it. Life only takes off when you want it to, and you must keep going. You can't afford to stop. 

Can you be happy with whatever you have and continue doing the work? To most, it sounds impractical or philosophical. We live in a world that obtains benefits every day, and if we don't achieve them, we blame God and the universe and deem them non-existent. The truth is deep and intricate. It is not only about what you want to achieve in this life. It has been going on for centuries. There are levels to this game, and your soul has to reach different levels in the multiverse. The simplicity lies in accepting that your soul has to evolve, and the difficult part is understanding the concept because distractions are unavoidable. 

Earth is not our real home. If it was, then death should have been avoidable. The cycle of life and death continues because we don't let go of people and material, form grudges, and become revengeful. Hence, the law of karma activates from our first life through all interim lives we have lived until now. The viscosities will always vary, and we have to manage each tide, rapid and intimidating waves, detach from the outcome and finish the work of our soul's purpose. Our soul's purpose is strong. If we don't continue the path to our purpose, we unknowingly will suffer because of imbalance. I gave myself time to endure trauma, mental pain, and agony and chose not to escape it by building an exterior façade. The way to do this is to be your true self and to forgive everyone who hurt you. Don't leave one person. Forgive them all, and ask for forgiveness from the ones you hurt intentionally or unintentionally. 

In the last four months, I healed, releasing burdens from previous lives, praying, meditating, spending time with cats and dogs, drawing, reaching out to my inner child, and going for long walks. I had reached a state of ecstasy. I activated a portal, and it told me who I am and why I am still on Earth. It connected to my past lives as a Shaman and facilitated the same skills and power instilled in me centuries ago through my Shamanic ancestors.