Monday, 30 June 2025

The Perfect Sibling - A Short Story

 


I am happy for everything that God gave me. My loving parents, their respect in the society, the beautiful house we live in, and the good school that I go to. But yes, I do have a strong longing to have a sibling for I am a single child. I feel the need to share my thoughts, feelings and ideas with whom I can be comfortable with, and trust. Being a single child is very lonely and boring. Life doesn’t seem as interesting and exciting as most of my school friends. My parents are always busy in their work, and have no time to spend with me. This makes my life sad. Especially when my friends talk non-stop about their siblings.

 

I personally want a sister because I feel girls are more understanding. They are kind without being judgemental. They have the ability to give good advice. I have observed the girls in my class being smart and intelligent, quick and witty almost ready to offer solution to anything and everything. Honestly, I am surprised at their abilities. I shall pray to God every day that if ever in future, and how I wish it to be in immediate future, I have a sibling, it should be a sister. My baby sister who I will always protect, love and share my thoughts with. The very thought excites me.

 

I walk down to my school as it is barely five minutes away from my home. In the span of those five minutes I see so many street dogs in bad condition, without food and water, no shelter, people running their cars over them or kicking and shooing them away. On the other hand, I also witness dogs of famous breeds walking in style along their parents, or their servants with fancy leashes and dog poopers to quickly remove smelly poop thankfully leaving clean area for others to continue their walk.

 

I feel sad watching homeless dogs beaten for peeing, pooping, and barking.

 

Poor homeless creatures with longing to be loved run away only to come back later, perhaps to find some loving soul. We face a strange situation in our country. People spend so much money on breeds like St. Bernard's, Siberian Husky’s, Great Danes, Rottweilers and many more. Breeding is one cruel business I heard someone saying once. But what about these humble ones from the country – The Indian Pariah dogs?

 

I find them the finest dogs in the world. They are good looking, sharp, friendly, possessive and have a great attitude. They know how to love the friendly ones and go away from the unfriendly lot. But they are always neglected due to our pretentious society. I strongly suggest to adopt these beautiful street dogs instead of buying and showing off foreign breeds. I am often confused, because I find all of us spending so much money in buying beautiful things, but leave these homeless creatures unattended only to live like orphans. Why can’t people see their sad eyes and take care of them? Can’t we just spend some money on their food and health, and make this world a better place for them. After all, what do they want from us? I am sure our communication and love towards them will make them happy.

 

Out of the bunch, one tiny brown furred one caught my attention. A couple of days back I had stopped at a department store to buy myself a chocolate milkshake. This adorable being was sitting outside the main door of the store looking perhaps to be fed. As I stepped out and stroked this baby it lied on its back only to be rubbed more and feel the warmth. I was delighted to find it a female and a sudden rush of affection flowed from me to her. I had once read that when dogs lie on their back, it meant they like you and want you to pet them. I sat next to her and rubbed her stomach. She looked happy like a child is with mother’s caresses. She felt protected and sheltered and incessantly licked my fingertips and nibbled them in want of food. I looked at her carefully. She seemed to be an abandoned and starved child. Her eyes spoke so much, and I wanted to urgently feed her. I picked her up and went to the pharmacy store that displayed dog food at its entry with only 500 rupees note in my pocket.

 

There was a Pedigree packet in yellow and pink colour which said ‘Puppy- Chicken and Milk’ with images of two dogs cuddling each other. I grabbed the three kilograms’ pack and asked for the price from the man sitting behind the counter. Before he could reply my eyes fell on the sticker mentioning 540/- so I asked if the smaller pack is available which sadly was not. Looking at my unease and my pretty furry baby he extended a discount of forty rupees. I was touched by his gesture which made me think that the world also has kind and generous people. I asked for a scissor, placing her on the floor cut the packet open from top. She immediately sprang pushing me in excitement upon seeing the food and hearing the sound of my hands crumpling the edges backwards, dig her mouth almost inside the packet with arms all the way stretched with determination and firmly kept on my wrist, her legs gave her full support by being solidly placed on the ground. She looked like a little wolf on a hunt.

 

After few days of mutual friendship there was no sign of her. Days passed by. I was now worried. Was she alright? I hoped she was not harmed. I went to the department store and to the pharmacy in case she was hiding there for safety but to my surprise she was nowhere to be seen.

 

I asked the tea vendor situated at the corner of the lane, as I had seen her couple of times chewing the disposable tea cups. I had always stopped her from chewing those cups and fed her with her favourite pedigree ‘Chicken and Milk’ dog food. I also questioned the florist adjacent to the department store as she was fond of smelling the fragrant flowers, especially lavender and orchids kept in the bucket at the entrance of the shop, her head high with her elongated neck. No one was interested to know about her. The flowers didn’t look beautiful in her absence nor the fragrance was noticeable. I even went to the local sweets shop as I thought the smell of sweets might have invited her to chance on something. But the owner had no idea of her whereabouts. Without her it seemed as if my heart drowned in the ocean.

 

Days passed by.

 

Today, in my mathematics class the teacher caught me drawing. Obviously, I drew my soft brown four-legged baby. Her sad face. The teacher yelled at me asking, “what is this? Is this what you do in your Maths class?” I weakly apologised and carefully looked at the drawing to see if I had missed anything to it. And then it struck me. To redraw her ears in somewhat triangular shape with drooping edges. I made a firm decision to later fill in the picture with my crayons that I had received on my eighth birthday last year from my maternal grandmother. But my thoughts were distracted as the teacher held my hands angrily and dragged me to the principal’s office. Perhaps I did not hear her reiterated warning.

 

At the dining table both pair of eyes were on me, moms were soft and caring, but dads were of irritation. The principal had complained to my parents about my inattentiveness. My father is a Chartered Accountant and he takes the subject of Maths extremely seriously. Any digression from it is highly intolerable to him. I was quiet on the table and would have kept quiet throughout, but I think I had to vent the anger out because of loneliness or maybe I missed my brown little furry friend too much. Everything was alright up till dad said, “we sent you to a good school Ronit. And this is how you make use of it, drawing in your Maths class. It is shameful”. I was almost in tears but kept my expression firm to keep my dignity.

 

When he did not get any reaction from me, I heard him saying, you will not go to your art classes from now on. This hit me. Art classes were like balm to my lonely evenings. I stood up crying unmindful of my tears and screamed somewhat frustratingly, this would have not happened if I had a sibling. You both have no time to spend with me. My evenings are sad and boring, and by the time you come back from your respective work I am off to bed. I made a harmless friend and now even she has gone away. The pain of loneliness is heart tearing and dangerous. Wiping my tears and clearing my throat I continued, “it is almost lethal dad. I am very lonely. Why does everyone leave me? I am alone at home, in school, even my dog friend has left me now. You both are too busy in your lives to feel my pain and now I can’t even draw?

It is only the blank drawing sheets who understand me and listen to me. It lets me express myself and talk. And now you are taking that away from me. I then ran away to my room. I could see the lightning from the window. So, I went to the balcony and all I could think of was my brown furry friend. I was worried of her whereabouts. After sometime I came back to the room and sat on my bean bag.

 

The drawing was still kept on the dining table and mom must have had a look at it. While I heard the strong rain pouring outside, I simultaneously heard her speak to dad. You should at least have a look at his drawing. It is beautiful. He is sensitive and cares for the street dogs. We hardly spend time with him and he is right about having a sibling. They talked for some time but with my grief I could not understand.

 

It was getting late enough to be worried. I once again stepped into the balcony and looked down. Except for a drenched street dog that was lying down miserably near the corner of the gate, there was not a soul to be seen anywhere. Rain water had puddled under the lamp post. A breeze ruffled the mango tree in the courtyard and a few twigs fell down and broke. Thunder rumbled in the distance. Did I hear a soft knock at the door? I turned back and went to open the door. Mom was standing with her consoling eyes and asked me if I wanted to drink a cup of hot chocolate.

It is raining. Hot drink would do you good, she said.

 

No thanks. I am fine mom. I replied dramatically, and went to the balcony again. As I stood embracing my sadness, I could not see the drenched street dog that was earlier lying near the gate. I was stunned. Why did everyone seem to vanish in a jiffy from my life?

 

Mom sat on my bed with a confounding smile on her face. I didn’t want to look miserable to her. So, I went to the kitchen to eat my favourite Oreo cookies to brighten up my mood and when I stepped out of the kitchen, I saw the main door of the house open and dad standing right in front of me.

 

He said, Ronit, there is someone who would like to meet you. I could not understand who would want to see me at ten in the night. I went near the door and heard different forms of onomatopoeia. There she was. My eyes popped open wide and tears of joy trickled down my cheeks. She jumped right at me and I held her in my arms. I kissed her and hugged her tight. My excitement of reunion knew no bounds. She had grown big in these three weeks but looked weak. Her tiny paws touched my face for reassurance and her unstoppable licks made me happy and loved. Mom fed her with milk and me with hot chocolate milk.

 

Later Dad told me that he recognised the drooping ears in the drawing. It was the very dog that sat under his car in the basement parking and even he had felt affection for this little being. As soon he had seen the drawing he went to the parking where she was peacefully sleeping at her usual place. It took a while to get her as she was first frightened. Luckily, anticipating non-co-operation from the frail being his intellect had alerted him to carry dog biscuits to lure her. After a pause and watching my indulgence with her, Dad continued, I think you both are inseparable, Ronit. I am sorry. I should have understood you better. By the way, she will live with us now. He looked at mom with a smile. They both looked at us and it felt like the family was complete. I could not let her go off my arms and I thanked God for giving me what I wanted.

 

“She is not a human but she is my perfect sibling.”


Tuesday, 17 June 2025

Procrastination

 


Three months ago someone asked me on my YouTube channel:

How can we take the control of our life back? Why can't I stop procrastinating? Why do I disappoint myself every time? Even though I know what I am doing is wrong but I am still not able to prevent it. Why my emotions are so complex?

We can't control anything. But as far as procrastination is concerned, it occurs because we fear taking the necessary steps, as we form the notion that failure will result in sadness and embarrassment. Now, what is even failure? We really can't deem not getting something failure. Imagine this - when someone likes a person or something, it becomes an ardent want and desire. 

After getting it, it often happens that we realize this was not even what we wanted. We are programmed to be in a certain way from our childhood, and many factors keep us living in an endless loop - our upbringing, surroundings, and conditionings. 

The incredible thing is that you have realized you deserve more and want to design a life for yourself in your own way. Now, whatever you want out of life, please write it down somewhere. The things you desire emotionally and the things you want to achieve - career, personal growth, and your inner peace. It will take time, but the process will begin. You are procrastinating because you have become comfortable with your current environment. Once you identify your flaws, the things you have gone through - your trauma, failure, deceit, or it could be anything. You will start getting answers in tandem. You will get a solution, and you act upon it. The decision would be harsh and transformative, but only because you will be shunning years of attachment and pain. The darkness will do its best to lure you. You have to find that tiny ray of light in the darkness and step into the light. Things will start happening.



Monday, 21 April 2025

Activate The Magic Within You

 



My mission is to help people realize that creating magic every day can be their full-time job. I facilitate anyone who is unable to comprehend the deepest parts of their soul so they can transform their lives and achieve a sense of self.

I have transformed and transmuted years of trauma, pain, and patterns to start a new journey of who I was always meant to be—a healer, shaman, and coach. A fun fact about me is that you’d often find me communicating with animals. It is effortless two-way communication. I am a writer, speaker, and dancer. 

                   HOW DID I BECOME A SHAMANIC LIFE COACH?


There was no particular experience that led me toward my coaching journey. But to begin with, family trauma led me to a specific pattern in my relationships. I isolated myself and healed through different modalities such as travelling, hiking, photography, aviation, writing, dancing, tarot, nature, and animals.

Something unexpected was the feline love that happened to me. I was always a dog person. But cats came to me automatically when I had to learn about self-love and stop people pleasing.

It was a long and arduous journey. I was alone but never really alone because I knew I had the love and protection of my divine family and angels. Something within clicked, and I thought there was too much deviousness in the world, and there had to be someone to tackle it and fight against it for the good. So, I cultivated self-love and strength and started reading a lot about healing and simultaneously healing those who need it around me. But I wanted to do it on a large scale. All these years, I thought I was worth nothing. But now I know that I am extremely powerful. I started a YouTube channel in November 2024, and through three categories - Dance Heals, Messages from the Divine, and Cat Thoughts, I imparted knowledge of my experiences. Here is a link:

https://www.youtube.com/@ThePotPhilosopher

My message to all of you is that you are special. Give yourself time and patience. 


You understand the design and cycle of life. Although you are not able to elevate beyond a certain point. 

You have been accustomed to self-sabotaging yourself because the world made you feel that way.

After we work together - you will be able to discern the powers you possess.

For further details regarding 1:1 coaching, contact me at earthangeljay6@gmail.com



Wednesday, 5 March 2025

Shamanism - The Unknown Life Path I Had to Explore & Leave Earth


                                                         

Your life will become beautiful when you make conscious efforts to improve it. Life only takes off when you want it to, and you must keep going. You can't afford to stop. 


Can you be happy with whatever you have and continue doing the work? To most, it sounds impractical or philosophical. We live in a world that obtains benefits every day, and if we don't achieve them, we blame God and the universe and deem them non-existent. The truth is deep and intricate. It is not only about what you want to achieve in this life. It has been going on for centuries. There are levels to this game, and your soul has to reach different levels in the multiverse. The simplicity lies in accepting that your soul has to evolve, and the difficult part is understanding the concept because distractions are unavoidable. 


Earth is not our real home. If it was, then death should have been avoidable. The cycle of life and death continues because we don't let go of people and material, form grudges, and become revengeful. Hence, the law of karma activates from our first life through all interim lives we have lived until now. The viscosities will always vary, and we have to manage each tide, rapid and intimidating waves, detach from the outcome and finish the work of our soul's purpose. Our soul's purpose is strong. If we don't continue the path to our purpose, we unknowingly will suffer because of imbalance. I gave myself time to endure trauma, mental pain, and agony and chose not to escape it by building an exterior façade. The way to do this is to be your true self and to forgive everyone who hurt you. Don't leave one person. Forgive them all, and ask for forgiveness from the ones you hurt intentionally or unintentionally. 

In the last four months, I healed, releasing burdens from previous lives, praying, meditating, spending time with cats and dogs, drawing, reaching out to my inner child, and going for long walks. I had reached a state of ecstasy. I activated a portal, and it told me who I am and why I am still on Earth. It connected to my past lives as a Shaman and facilitated the same skills and power instilled in me centuries ago through my Shamanic ancestors. 


















 



Saturday, 8 February 2025

Don't Run the Race, Endure a Marathon



We think we have control over things and people - we don't. We become pedantic to attain power, control, and material. How can we not know we are small in the grand scheme of things? Have you ever tried standing below the trees for a long time? Do you climb the mountains? The exasperation will want you to give up. Do you deep dive in the ocean? The depth will intimidate you. You know what? Just try looking at the sky for twenty minutes. It changes colours and may be benign. But don't be fooled. The energy it radiates is powerful beyond measure. Witnessing such force of nature shall make you understand that you don't control anything. Nature controls us. The sooner we realize this notion, the better it is for our souls. 

The last four months have been mystical for me and layered with deception. I went through many emotional upheavals. Some days were of epiphany, others were blissful, and many were about clearing out my past life karmas. Life in these few months has taught me about containment, which was an important lesson for me to learn. Containment is necessary. It teaches you to be calm and makes you understand the importance of slow and silent success, a lesson imperative in this era of instant gratification and the hunger for overnight success. If you rush into anything - work, hobby, relationship, or anything else, it will not give good results. I have personally experienced this in all areas of life. Don't Rush. 

I am happy and feel blessed that with all the turmoil, I also received blessings, guidance, and love from my divine angels. I know that God is always with me. I have a divine team guiding me and always looking out for me. And because of it, I am able to tap into my emotional intelligence and approach everything with love and compassion. 

You have to break your old patterns to move forward in life. Most of all, you have to break the pattern of comfort. Learn to be alone and embrace it. Whatever you are aspiring to achieve - there is a long way to go. So, keep showing up every day and put in the work. When you believe in yourself and in your work, and you know your work has a big purpose, you get the confidence to go further, and you will be in auto mode. 

If you are reading this blog, you have survived. You were always magical. Now, use this magic to spread love, peace, and happiness, and don't run the race but endure a marathon. 


Tuesday, 4 February 2025

Old Manali - Love at First Sight

 


I have travelled to many places, but no place has made me feel the way Old Manali does. Old Manali hypnotized me with its beauty. It happened in 2014 after some inhibitions. I fell in love with it, the kind of love I cannot give anyone. Love happens in many ways, but no matter how many times one falls in love, even intently and at first sight, no one can fall in love as instantly and profoundly as I fell for Old Manali. There is a reason to use the phrase - Love at first sight. I am sure heaven feels like this, and I am certain you do not attain salvation after the seventh realm. You reach Old Manali. The snow-capped mountains and the lush green Deodar trees remain silent but observe each tourist with their respective desires and the purpose of the visit. Conveying the message to the omnipotent presence. The on-arrival visa is received, but the visitors are unaware of it.

Nestled at about 2000 meters above sea level in the state of Himachal Pradesh amidst lush green Deodar trees, Old Manali is a hidden gem. A magical location in the Indian Himalayas with freshness and a vibe of divinity. After all, it is situated near Kullu Valley, the valley which is called the ‘Valley of Gods.

Walking through Old Manali, you can see homes with Indian Vernacular Architecture. Vernacular Architecture is the informal, functional architecture of structures, often in rural areas of India, built of local materials and designed to meet the needs of the local people. So, a typical traditional home in Old Manali is made of wood and covered with humongous-looking stones for the roof, surrounded by big stone slabs and thick straw. The tiny road of the village has a convivial aura, people washing their clothes in the open from the hand pump, little children playing cricket and football, the farmers cutting long Deodar tree branches to burn them for the approaching long winters is a usual sightseeing experience. These are simple and happy village people, but they all look back, greet and give a warm smile, and once you sit down and talk to them, the conversation can go on for hours with incessant cups of chai. 

The main street has cafes smelling of freshly brewed coffee and bakery. It is alluring, and all of them have intriguing names, some of which are - Café 1947, River Music Garden Restaurant & German Bakery, Casa Bella Vista, Dylan’s Toasted & Roasted Coffee House, Drifter’s Café, Johnson’s Café & Hotel, The Lazy Dog Lounge, Shiva Café, Il Forno, Café Sunshine, Olive Garden, Red House Café, Lily’s Café, Fat Plate Café, with the Manalsu river flowing with speeding rapids at the back of all these cafes, and it looks beautiful as if staring at a mesmerizing painting. 

I have wandered around Old Manali with acquaintances, an ex-girlfriend, strangers, solo, and with dogs. I can’t say one trip was the best because each had a profound impact. But in October 2024, it was peaceful. I met an Author from Cornwall, England. We talked about life, and it turned into erudite discussions. Old Manali does that to people. I finally have started to meet my soul tribe. 

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